eternal flame...

I often wonder

what you do

what you think

how we link

I am amazed

how you make me

think of you

imagine you

you can even

change my mood

owh my god

I am so screwed

kinda funny

I am like the queen bee

and you, young and carefree

What exactly do we see

Really beyond me 

do you feel the same?

like eternal flame?

                      p/s      Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan siapa dihatiku...

Dear Awak,

Dear Awak,

Awak tau tak
Mesti awak tak tau
Tapi setiap masa
Saya ingat kat awak
Awak ingat saya juga?
Mesti tak...
Sebab saya tau
Awak bukan gitu

Awak awak...
Awak sayang saya tak?
Saya sayangggg awak
Dari duluuu lagi awak
Awak sayang saya jugak?
Mesti tak....
Sebab saya tau
Saya jer yang gitu

Agaknya kan awak
Sampai bila kita gini ekk awak?
Awak mesti dah muak
Sebab saya pun dah muak
Dengan awak
Awak awak.....

distinct disorder

...and she said
you have a bad case
of compulsive hoarding
you are not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in your distressed life

...and I said
what else is new
all that I already knew
i am not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in my impaired life

A fool believer...

I always believe in fairy tales
happily ever after
prince charming
all those nonsense

I always believe everyone is good
if they don't, then its just too bad
naively being me
always with good thoughts

but life taught me
nastiness, unfairness
no such thing
as unconditional love

am I crazy if I say
I still hope for
all that I believe
exist?

reminiscing

every now and then
I will look back
and read what I wrote
and try to feel
what I felt
when I was putting
my soul in thoughts

most times I will smile
on how pathetic I was
had been in such mess
which should never be a cause
but alas
that was how i was
that will be how I am
because I am.
Full stop.

A tribute to WaWa... A sad memory

those memories

that I thought was erased

from my mind

definitely remained.

how can I forget

the sadness that I felt

the things you did

not thinking of me.

I knew I lied

when I said I forgave

I can never do that

not ever.. I believe.