Thursday, December 20, 2012

eternal flame...

I often wonder
what you do
what you think
how we link
I am amazed
how you make me
think of you
imagine you
you can even
change my mood
owh my god
I am so screwed
kinda funny
I am like the queen bee
and you, young and carefree
What exactly do we see
Really beyond me 

do you feel the same?
like eternal flame?

                      p/s      Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan siapa dihatiku...

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Dear Awak,

Dear Awak,

Awak tau tak
Mesti awak tak tau
Tapi setiap masa
Saya ingat kat awak
Awak ingat saya juga?
Mesti tak...
Sebab saya tau
Awak bukan gitu

Awak awak...
Awak sayang saya tak?
Saya sayangggg awak
Dari duluuu lagi awak
Awak sayang saya jugak?
Mesti tak....
Sebab saya tau
Saya jer yang gitu

Agaknya kan awak
Sampai bila kita gini ekk awak?
Awak mesti dah muak
Sebab saya pun dah muak
Dengan awak
Awak awak.....

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

distinct disorder

...and she said
you have a bad case
of compulsive hoarding
you are not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in your distressed life

...and I said
what else is new
all that I already knew
i am not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in my impaired life

Saturday, December 8, 2012

A fool believer...

I always believe in fairy tales
happily ever after
prince charming
all those nonsense

I always believe everyone is good
if they don't, then its just too bad
naively being me
always with good thoughts

but life taught me
nastiness, unfairness
no such thing
as unconditional love

am I crazy if I say
I still hope for
all that I believe

Friday, December 7, 2012


every now and then
I will look back
and read what I wrote
and try to feel
what I felt
when I was putting
my soul in thoughts

most times I will smile
on how pathetic I was
had been in such mess
which should never be a cause
but alas
that was how i was
that will be how I am
because I am.
Full stop.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

A tribute to WaWa... A sad memory

those memories
that I thought was erased
from my mind
definitely remained.

how can I forget
the sadness that I felt
the things you did
not thinking of me.

I knew I lied
when I said I forgave
I can never do that
not ever.. I believe.