Dear Awak,

Dear Awak,

Awak tau tak
Mesti awak tak tau
Tapi setiap masa
Saya ingat kat awak
Awak ingat saya juga?
Mesti tak...
Sebab saya tau
Awak bukan gitu

Awak awak...
Awak sayang saya tak?
Saya sayangggg awak
Dari duluuu lagi awak
Awak sayang saya jugak?
Mesti tak....
Sebab saya tau
Saya jer yang gitu

Agaknya kan awak
Sampai bila kita gini ekk awak?
Awak mesti dah muak
Sebab saya pun dah muak
Dengan awak
Awak awak.....

distinct disorder

...and she said
you have a bad case
of compulsive hoarding
you are not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in your distressed life

...and I said
what else is new
all that I already knew
i am not willing
to discard those negative vibes
in my impaired life

A fool believer...

I always believe in fairy tales
happily ever after
prince charming
all those nonsense

I always believe everyone is good
if they don't, then its just too bad
naively being me
always with good thoughts

but life taught me
nastiness, unfairness
no such thing
as unconditional love

am I crazy if I say
I still hope for
all that I believe
exist?

reminiscing

every now and then
I will look back
and read what I wrote
and try to feel
what I felt
when I was putting
my soul in thoughts

most times I will smile
on how pathetic I was
had been in such mess
which should never be a cause
but alas
that was how i was
that will be how I am
because I am.
Full stop.

A tribute to WaWa... A sad memory

those memories

that I thought was erased

from my mind

definitely remained.

how can I forget

the sadness that I felt

the things you did

not thinking of me.

I knew I lied

when I said I forgave

I can never do that

not ever.. I believe.

 

yesterday...

yesterday
you came into my mind
knocking on my heart

yesterday
felt like dejavu
when did i left you?

yesterday
was meant to be yesterday
i am not so sure of today..

please stop.

that dull feeling
throbbing
when you're in pain

those pills popping
non stopping
please make it go away